Of all things I write, I feel this will be beneficial if shared. For whatever reason I am (burdened) with great knowledge, I feel this knowledge will be beneficial for any who (seek) it. Blessings and peace upon the seekers on the Earth, who know suffering, and through suffering who find truth and freedom. Let there be great joy for those who find truth, share it, and are subsequently rejected. Let there be joy in the heart of those who know truth, and through knowing truth, threaten the lies our civilization has been built upon. As the universe wants to know every possibility it can “think” of, it happens. We are only one scenario (reality) that the universe wants to know about, there are infinite. Because we wanted (this) grand experience, it was granted. Because we thought, “what if,” and it was so. Yet nothing false is able to last, and nothing built upon falsehood will be able to stand. Our society is built upon many falsehoods, and we are at the turning point in our civilization. Here is the letter friends in boosting 
( is my attempt at lightheartedness in trying to shine a light on a dark subject, as I suffer same as everyone in this scenario) And through this some may (learn) me better. As anyone who is able to feel and know human soul emotion, there is beauty in the darkness of the night’s sky just as there may be darkness in the midst of mid summer’s day. This letter is aimed at a true (spirit) friend.
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X,
Listen to my words carefully, and follow my advice, and your burden
will be (gone) and then you will be free, and know freedom.
Listen and respect the following words, and you may know yourself.
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Let go of all fear. Do not be afraid of anything, anyone, or any
situation. Even in death there is nothing to fear. Fear is a (strong)
illusion, and it only exists in our minds if we let it. Fear is a
master, having fear makes one a slave. -
Let go of all guilt. Modern day religions are disgusting in that
they will (prey) on your guilt and make you feel guilty, therefore
guilt becomes your master, and you become its slave. Let go of all
guilt. -
Ask yourself, “Who what am I?” How you act in tough situations
determines your character. -
Learn your challenges and accept them. Your first challenge is healing.
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Find your own life truth. Determine what you feel is true, as only
true things are capable of lasting a life time.
Here is what happened, X. Your Mom was abused by a man as a
youth. This is called first generational abuse. Abuse causes a lot of
anger and frustration, and it is too much to keep inside, so it must
be taken out on someone. Your mom took it out and your father, your
sisters, and yourself. Your Mom has suffered immensely and didn’t or
wasn’t able to deal with this suffering all herself, so she gave it to
others to deal with. Your Dad took it and didn’t pass it on to anyone
else, he it ended there. Since you were raised in it, you didn’t have
much choice but to take it on yourself. As your Mother loves you and
wanted to keep you close, but she wasn’t strong enough to handle her
anger and frustration. She will keep doling it out until she learns to
deal with it.
You as second (generational) abuse ended up giving me a weaker but
still potent (third) generational abuse. All the anger and frustration
you couldn’t handle you gave to me. Now I am filled with the same
anger and frustration that was bothering you. I am strong enough to
handle and even counter it, but at this moment I have a lot of anger
and frustration towards you, which would make a relationship with you
very unhealthy at this time.
You need to be strong enough to handle this anger and frustration, and
to let go of it. Forgive your mother, let go of your anger. At the
same time, your mother needs to do the same, otherwise she will die an
angry old woman, angry at men, and taking out her anger on men.
The way I get to know myself is by looking at my own eyes in the
mirror, and I can see the true nature of my soul which I am currently
not able to fully express in my physical form. I suggest you do the
same, look deep into your own eyes and know yourself.
This is important again. Do not feel any guilt, or fear, or any lower
emotion. These only serve to bring one down. Do not be ashamed to do
what you have to (and must) do to survive in the current reality, at
the same time shoot for the stars and hope for the best, and be
prepared for the worst.
By living with someone else you give them authority over you. It’s your choice.
I wish you the best and I wish you the best in healing. I jabbed and
made you feel uneasy on purpose to hasten your healing process. It is
my gift, as are these words.
A relationship is just a reflection of ourselves. The love we show to
others is really just a reflection of the love we contain in
ourselves. The anger or hate we show to others is really just a
reflection of the anger and (hate) we show in ourselves. When the
anger and hate within ourselves is gone, we only show love. When the
love is gone, we only show anger, or hate or frustration.
If we tried a relationship again it would truly be poisonous and I
have little love left (that I now keep for myself) and a lot of anger
and frustration, which I will deal with appropriately, and with
responsibility as a sovereign being. And you are not healed yet, and
you do not (truly) know yourself yet. As we move into higher vibration
the ego can no longer exist. Many people identify themselves by their
ego, and to many it feels like they are dying. Don’t identify with any
things. Don’t say to yourself, “because I play an instrument I am an
instrumentalist.” As when the instrument is removed, than what are
you? What do you have left? What you have left is (truth) and your
true self.
I believe the heart is the spiritual center of the body, just like the
belly button is the physical center of the body. Keep your mind
balanced, your spirit centered on your heart, and your body centered
on your belly (physical center of gravity, so you don’t trip).
The truth is on a deeper level we all want (or wanted) to experience a
situation like this. A life is not necessarily peaceful but filled
with things that go wrong, and as we age the body will start breaking down.
It’s how we handle the things that go wrong that show who we truly are.
So those that experience the most hardship
in this life are truly blessed, as theirs is the accelerated path.
I don’t have anything else to say. Our relationship was the right
thing for the right time. Thank you for your help, and I wish you luck
in your healing process.
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Healing. Peace. G’night.
